You may have caught this in my Barakamon post yesterday, but I’ve kinda stretched myself thin lately, and am having trouble keeping up with everything I need to stay on top of. Mainly class work as finals are coming up and I have a butt-load of sociology papers to write. That and the ever-looming threat of not being able to pay my monthly bills since I’m working so much less than usual… Anyway what I’m getting at is that I may have to go back up not updating the blog everyday which is something I really don’t want to do.
This blog has kinda been really important to me lately, and has been a gateway to meeting very cool people, finding beautiful shows, and advance my writing style. A lot of you fellow bloggers I consider my anime senpais, and I really can’t thank you enough for the guidance you’ve given me whether you know it or not. What’s really frustrating for me right this moment is that I know you’re also loving and understanding people who wouldn’t mind me slowing things down. What I worry about is that I won’t be able to pick myself back up.
I wouldn’t say that I’m bipolar, but I’m definitely one of those people who over indulges on the things that I love to the point where I no longer love them. If there was a sport I enjoyed, I would practice nonstop until I collapsed from exhaustion. When I hear a song that I love I will play it on a loop until I can’t stand to listen to it anymore. When I find a book series that’s the best thing I’ve ever read I will learn every detail about it’s lore and history until it becomes flawed in my mind. In short, I have no self-control.
So I guess what I’m getting at is that I might need some of you to keep an eye out for me. I don’t plan on falling off the face of the earth, but if I go a full week without posting anything you might need to reel me in. I am working on 6 posts right now that I just can’t figure out how to finish, and one video that might not come out until next year. And I’d like to keep up my episodic updates each week, but those might fall by the wayside with all the schoolwork I mentioned. And I guess that actually pretty much covers it. Hopefully whatever this slump I feel like I’m falling into is just temporary, but since Thanksgiving break it’s felt like a real challenge to get anything done — a feeling I usually associate with losing all motivation X_X
But we’ll just see about that!